Basically, I can kiss my social life goodbye when I go back to school. I don't know if I can handle it. It was pretty busy last semester. This semester I'm working more in the lab, much more class time, harder classes and add another job onto it? And, you know, I'd like to keep my GPA at least where it is. I can accept a B in Physics or Chem, but not both. All other As.
And of course, I need to go home sometimes...oh well. I have a bad habit of biting off more than I can chew but I always manage eventually. I need the money. I can't pass up the extra 100 bucks a week from the Apple store. That's books, food, clothes. I need new shoes, new shirts, a new comforter....and with my mom still out of a job and the economy the way it is, I can't justify not working two jobs. If I could make 175-200 a week at the Chem department I would- but I can't. It's going to be hard. I can't be slacking off. But I can handle it.
And then maybe I can go somewhere cool for Spring Break. Canadia, Mexico, Tokyo... Not that I know if I'm going to want to go; right now I'd go, but if I have a boyfriend / friend with benefits it might be hard to go to Japan to see Masa. I miss him as a friend, but I can see where that might bother a new guy in my life if I had one. I can see where it would really bother someone new. But if I'm left for someone easier, closer to home (story of my life), then who knows. It's really far too early to be thinking about it, but air fare is so much cheaper thinking about it now rather than in January.
On the other hand, I'm still the only one working. Greg works but doesn't save and Mattie doesn't work. What if my mom hasn't found a job by then? That money could pay off some loans, pay some bills, go towards tuition, insurance, something. Still, I think a break is in order. I don't know. Too early to worry too much about it. I hate planning things like that- I like thinking about it and figuring out how to do it, but planning it exactly bothers me. At the same time, I have to think about it now.
Planning out how I'd do something also makes me feel better. Finding a problem I may or may not face and then going through the details of how I'd get around it or through it or otherwise survive it makes it less scary and controllable. Not that traveling is scary, but it would involve planning- how much I can spend, how to save it, what I'd have to cut back on.
Bah, I'm sleepy. And I'm going out tomorrow so I'm going to sleep so I don't sleep through all of tomorrow. Oh, I'm so responsible when seeing Chip is involved
